Maybe it is just something that comes with age; the refinement of our tastebuds. Not just my taste buds are refining, but my “taste” in people. I am getting sick on fake people, artificially flavored foods and drinks and products that are cheap versions of the real thing.
This weekend I had the first migraine I have had for about 10 years. When it was coming to an end I decided that I would force myself to eat something. My pantry has a fair section of junk food and I saw some leftover pop tarts that I had purchased for my teenage sisters when they visited last weekend. I used to love pop tarts. I took a small bite of the frosted pasty and immediately felt nauseous. I don’t know if it was really the pop tart or for the first time my taste buds were truly alive and alert. I tasted the fake jelly filling and the frosted outside. The artificial flavored strawberry filling made me long for fresh strawberries and the entire pastry made me long for a fresh baked good. This is not just how I feel about food but a metaphor for how I see life.
I had the same thing happen to me with people. Have you ever talked to someone and realized that the person you were communicating with were simply going through the motions and weren’t really listening to you at all? Have you ever been mid conversation with someone and realized how fake the conversation was to begin with and were suddenly sick of faking it? Like you were suddenly awaked and couldn’t fake it anymore?
Be authentic. Whatever that may be: scared, worried, happy, sad, excited. Whatever you are feeling be true to yourself and your feelings.